Challenging

I didnt realize that the online class would be so challenging
Not in terms of content but  time
I make time for other things easily but sitting for the hour long class seems like a weight
I do it but sometimes begrudgingly
Well I gotta do what I gotta do so I'm not gonna complain and take my notes and make my materials up so I am ready when they all me.
DANG!
It never stops!
(Nope it does not!)

No.

Don't. Do. This.

If you haven't ever practiced at home, don't take it out to these streets
A for effort
F for execution

So true

Near and Dear

When you're working on your thing, it's YOURS
All yours
You don't want anybody messing with it
I decided on two versions, so that I have mine, which is mine and I can probably publish just one or two copies on my own just to have on my shelf (like the Voynich manuscript)

Then the other version that everybody reads and edits the sam hill out of, that everyone can read...

I think that is how it has to be

And oooohhhh

This happened

(Pres be like: I got it bruh)

Aaaaaannnd

This happened

Here we go

I am still at it.
I didnt want to post till I'd gotten somewhere.
Now I've gotten somewhere and there is more to go
Still writing
I dunno about sleep
I feel tired a lot

I try not to re-read the prose more than once otherwise I wanna scrap the whole thing.
Editing be hanged
Later I'm gonna get Nev to read it
He liked the vid I put together and wants to put it up on his wall
I was SHOCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmmm

That was kind of a deep sigh
Its been a kind of stressy week but good thing that  I have had a rally cry of support.
I am to spend Friday just talking to P
Relaxing to music and writing through feeling ill
Oh and ugh
It has not been good at all
 

Sleepless, but good that they've been up when I woke up in the middle of the night to talk to me.
 Sometimes I dunno how I can
Feeling ill and stressed is no fun
However the writing takes my mind off it...
did I write
Yeh and yeh!

Outside

You know what's good for inspiration? Being outside
I mean out in town just walking amongst people though not necessarily interacting
Then sitting somewhere and people watching
That is the best
I did that yesterday.

So many ideas came to mind, before I got really tired and  almost drifted off for a long time
I was reading through and I realized some of the pages  and paragraphs need reorganization.
But I'm gonna wait till the end to do it.
If i reread too much I am gonna get sick of the story...
I'm tired now...

Connect

Ok so I have been out of the blog for a little while because I've been kinds of ill and busy.
One of the best things that's happened is that I got to talk to PM some more
It's been a relief
PM turned out to be quite deep and supportive

I'd sent him my attempt at a short food film short and he quite liked it and found it interesting. Only one person I showed dismissed it as nothing and I was disappointed but shrugged that off because generally its always a negative reaction from that arena anyway (Sometimes you just need people to be nice and acknowledge your efforts - you know?)
 PM is supportive so I told him about the thing I was/am writing.
I was so into it that I was able to describe in detail the background and the plot and where I think it was going and how I intend to finish by the end of the year.

I really intend to.
I want to
Its been too long
I dunno if I am gonna get an agent but I have access to many now so I am thinking about it.
I just hope it works out
I am keeping it under wraps till I am done.

But I am excited.
I am also going to continue with the food shorts. I have a fair amount of footage to edit together AND I could have had more but I have been too ill in the past few months to be bothered to film everything....
So here is hoping all goes well. I am trying to write at least everyday. a sentence or two even if I feel ill....

I am going to use the blog mainly to update my progress on that. I will see how it goes.
Wish me luck! :))))