16 Sept

Tuesday
Mama gone

And nothing means anything anymore
Saturday Sept 20 2014 funeral

the nerve

Ugh

Just want to be out
The dude has the grossest personality

Sometimes

Just sometimes

Surrounded

These days by people who see the best in me and let me know it

In word and deed

Another yes

For sure

Read

Do it

One day :)

One Day
I have hope
I got an email from someone I used to know saying he valued how magical and pure I was to him
Then another from some time ago saying lovely things
They came out of the woodwork just like that
I was so surprised and pleased :)

Now

Ready

I entered

New FREE contest for writers of middle grade fiction http://tinyurl.com/pwbds3q Judged by agent @petejknapp - via @chucksambuchino

Better

:)

honest

Today I am in pain
Emotional, that turned physical

All I want to hear is a simple sorry
That is all

For the book

This is good
From a book publicist

meanwhile

Been feeling rough for the past week
When I feel better its gonna be

Yaaaaasssss

yeh

Yep

Yep

one day

somebody sincere will come along and I'll have it :) #truelove :)

 

The unknown

Well the future is unknown but now i get to do anything, go anywhere
Its scary- ish
BUT

now there is nothing to hold us back and keep us depressed :)

We're free!

No matter what!
Now we can plan

Working out logistics!

Like aint nothing wrong

You gotta keep kaughing and smiling

like aint nothing wrong

cuz you need their help

they wont give it if you dont pretend to smile

Not a bad thing

"Not A Bad Thing"

[Verse 1:]
Said all I want from you is to see you tomorrow
And every tomorrow, maybe you'll let me borrow your heart
And is it too much to ask for every Sunday
And while we're at it, throw in every other day to start

[Pre-Chorus:]
I know people make promises all the time
Then they turn right around and break them
When someone cuts your heart open with a knife, now you're bleeding
But I could be that guy to heal it over time
And I won't stop until you believe it
'Cause baby you're worth it

[Chorus:]
So don't act like it's a bad thing to fall in love with me
'Cause you might fuck around and find your dreams come true, with me
Spent all your time and your money just to find out that my love was free
So don't act like it's a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
It's not a bad thing to fall in love with me, me

[Verse 2:]
Now how about I'd be the last voice you hear tonight?
And every other night for the rest of the nights that there are
Every morning I just wanna see you staring back at me
'Cause I know that's a good place to start

[Pre-Chorus:]
I know people make promises all the time
Then they turn right around and break them
When someone cuts your heart open with a knife, now you're bleeding
Don't you know that I could be that guy to heal it over time
And I won't stop until you believe it
'Cause baby you're worth it

[Chorus:]
So don't act like it's a bad thing to fall in love with me
'Cause you might fuck around and find your dreams come true, with me
Spent all your time and your money just to find out that my love was free
So don't act like it's a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
It's not a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
Not such a bad thing to fall in love with me
(Not such a bad thing to fall in love with me)

[Bridge:]
No I won't fill your mind
With broken promises and wasted time
And if you fall, you'll always land right in these arms
These arms of mine

[Chorus:]
Don't act like it's a bad thing to fall in love with me
'Cause you might fuck around and find your dreams come true, with me
Spent all your time and your money just to find out that my love was free
So don't act like it's a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
It's not a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
Not such a bad thing to fall in love with me

you gotta just

Laugh when somebody  manages to mess stuff up in your flow

Just laugh and move on

Reinvent

Thinking of revamping my style

Something like this but a touch more covered up
Just a touch
:)

Its a whole new life now

Moving on

Never discredit your gut instinct. 
 Your body can pick up vibrations, some better than others, and if something deep inside you says something’s not right about a person or situation, trust it and keep it pushing.

Keeping it moving
Got things that need to get done
:)

I still believe

Even though I never had it
I know it exists out there

#truelove

Currently in need of

A real Cary Grant type

Nah I'm good.
Imma just chill for a while
However if DURING my chill...

NO

Yep

Do it

What next

Playing it by ear

Life in limbo at the whims and fancies of another

progress

Tiny human's first children's story is done

Next step
Publish with pictures

A whole page

That was non-stop
So keep out OR

Seriously

Slump

I hit a wall
Went through a month of finding myself
Did I REALLY want what was to come after the month
Didnt really write except for some notes
Then I got an email listing the things I had to do.'
It felt hopeless but I think I will try
Ok so here goes

Keep out of my writing room :)

Saw these

Liked them

A lot

sigh

They look happy and good

*wistful glance at them

frustration

looks like this
keep writing

 

cold world

Why does he even attend?

take a moment then move on

Take a moment

Then Move on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Golden

...

:)

:)

ew

ew

Baby

All of this...

Halfway through

That deserves a....

And more

It's true

I know it's true

meanwhile

you just have to

When Goldie said this

The world opened up

“Let me tell you something about privilege; it is so intoxicating that you will fool yourself that you don’t have it.” - Goldie Taylor

tee hee

This is a yes

Today

That kinda day

tired

Of this kind of life

This happened

At the 21014 State of the Union address
Love Joe Biden

This will never not be funny

Scandal

Olivia Pope's dad has some stuff to say to Fitz
It aint easy in these streets

WELP!